Well the whole point of me deleting my facebook account was so that I do not have any knowledge of what goes on in ex's life. I do not want to be wondering, thinking about what skank he could possibly be hanging out with. (In all honesty I do not feel like he is the type of person who would be doing that right now, but just in case.)
All of this is just so unsettling and awful and really all I want to do is just call him up and work everything out because I miss him and I'm pathetic =(
Also. Tomorrow is my birthday. A lonely lonely 24.
I want my old life back..
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Wednesday, October 6, 2010
FJKHSFLJKHSDF
So I'm not going to say that I'm drunk because I am not drunk. But I did have a few beers tonight (because I am a beer girl) anndd I find it so funny how just a few beers makes me just absolutely crave to text or call ex up and tell him off orrr just even start some sort of shit with him. In reality I just really want to hear his voice because that's one of the things I miss the most.
One of my good friends bartends on Tuesday night at a local spot down the street from my house. Depending on my mood during that day I will typically stop down and see her after I get out of work (second job). Obviously "single Codi" is way more likely to do this than "attached Codi" so I ended up there tonight and probably will on most Tuesdays. Really gets the mind ticking..
I miss him to death.. I really do. It's awful. But at the same time I know that this is the best. "Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same." Right?? You can't keep putting your all into someone who isn't putting their all into you. Just isn't logical.
I found out today that he has re-activated his facebook. At first our picture was still up but he changed it. And from another source I heard that he still has "in a relationship" listed. No worries as I explicitly informed all of my informants that I want NO further details.
At this point I'm rambling. And I need to go to sleep or else risk a day full of grump. =( Even saying that reminds me of him.
God I suck at this.
Goodnight.
One of my good friends bartends on Tuesday night at a local spot down the street from my house. Depending on my mood during that day I will typically stop down and see her after I get out of work (second job). Obviously "single Codi" is way more likely to do this than "attached Codi" so I ended up there tonight and probably will on most Tuesdays. Really gets the mind ticking..
I miss him to death.. I really do. It's awful. But at the same time I know that this is the best. "Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same." Right?? You can't keep putting your all into someone who isn't putting their all into you. Just isn't logical.
I found out today that he has re-activated his facebook. At first our picture was still up but he changed it. And from another source I heard that he still has "in a relationship" listed. No worries as I explicitly informed all of my informants that I want NO further details.
At this point I'm rambling. And I need to go to sleep or else risk a day full of grump. =( Even saying that reminds me of him.
God I suck at this.
Goodnight.
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