last night's drama

I'm figuring since I am using this blog as a cathartic medium while I'm getting over this breakup/journeying on my love cleanse; it might be good to clue you in on what exactly caused all this to happen. Typical drama I'd say. Boy treats girl like shit, girl takes it. Girl is needy, boy isn't at all. Girl is very affectionate, boy avoids affection.

- BTW I do have a habit of swearing soo.. sorry if that offends anyone but um I'm going to try to avoid it. -

This goes back and forth for a while. Because obviously girl loves boy and boy says he loves girl. Not to mention this girl has an enormous issue with change and letting go (hence the outcome of her previous relationships).

Anyway what it all boiled down to was two days of arguing/denial of the fact that the relationship needed to end. Friday night = blow up. We came to some sort of conclusion, but he left off saying that he "probably wasn't going to change" and that things probably wouldn't work.

When we woke up in the morning he was his usual self, gave me a kiss and a hug goodbye when he left for work just like normal. Later that day I looked for comfort - which turned into another argument.

I go out that night to meet up with some friends. Boy said he was going out, but not for long. I text him a few times, but do not hear back from him all night. At the end of the night, my friends coincidentally ask me for a ride home. Now, they live in the same apartment complex as he does. So I have to drive past his apartment to leave - his car is not there. This is not a big deal; I figure he hasn't made it home yet. No sooner than two seconds later do I receive a text that says "I'm hommmmmmmmmmmme". "HMMM.." I say to myself. I proceed to call and inform boy that I know for a fact that he is indeed NOT home. He replies that he is on his way, and he is close. I ask him why he has not contacted me all night. He replies he just didn't feel like it. At this moment I realize that I am done with this nonsense. So.. I hang up the phone. He calls me a few times but I don't pick up. Then I get the voice mail notification "Just so you know I'm done" anndd that's all I head because pressed 77 immediately and deleted the message. Say no more boy, say no more. He calls a few times but I ignore them. I figure if he's going to break up with me in a voice mail well then what else is there really to say? I get one text message saying "Have a nice life. Goodbye" or something to that effect, I'm not really positive as I deleted it immediately.

Now, this may seem harsh right now, because you do not know much background into the relationship. But trust me, this was a long time coming.